It's been a long time that i have come to this part of the web, many instances provoked me to channel my thoughts into words and put them here but laziness won the race and that didn't happen.
Thoughts don't always come with a title and summing up many into a post is a difficult task, what ever happened in the past one year was an eye opener .. there was good and there was bad but as they say bad travels faster than the good .
i still remember the day where i was told by my manager for being late two times in the same week and getting a 5/5 for punctuality from the same person at the end of the year review, work placement changed me completely as a person in many aspects most importantly i learned to say "YES" for the right things and "NO" for the unnecessary ones.
Met some amazing people who make me think have you achieved anything?
when are you going to do it ?
when are you going to do it ?
in the past i always felt of achieving something at the same time felt people have looked upon me ? i thought i was thinking a bit too much but when many broke my confidence i had to build it up it took time but i guess the one thing which helped me back was some amazing music and a few songs to which i can relate my life to. and some which got me up from where i fell
" Don't you say I am a failure
You don't know who I can be "
Made a few good friends and realised many weren't.
it took me very long time to understand a simple fact that
"People come, people go
you got to keep moving on and
wish for their success"
I've always wanted a good group/set of friends that i can hang out/ share with
that didn't happen no matter what i do .. at the end something goes wrong and i have to start all over again, it happened so many times that i have just lost the hope.. not that I am having some problems or something is terribly wrong with me.
the worst part is when people you know especially the close ones start changing and act as strangers? I'm sorry but were you the one who came to me when you needed the support where are you now.. My photo wall reduced by two rows shows how many undeserving people i have been friends with
well its their loss and not mine .
There were self created mess as well in this 'past so called eye opener year' , cant blame anyone but me. to sum up the situation in a couple of sentences. when you go out of the way to help someone you burn yourself in and that's exactly what I did , in friendship especially with a guy
two things can cause problems 1) Money 2) Woman
in my case it was both mixed with jealousy, at the end of all this it irks you from inside that
there was no necessity for all this , it could have been avoided with a firm 'NO'.
by the time i learned how to say it it was too late .
its always hazy and unclear what a person expects from one another
all I seek is a pinch of trust and a bit of trueness.. i don't think that's too much to ask for ?
P.s - there are so many grammatical errors i know it , this was written in anger and out of frustration don't even bother correcting them
