As the title suggests its true that the word 'LOVE' is confusing and is a sweet poison (at least after experiencing it). initially it is such a good feeling, a feeling which just cant be expressed with words ..where you start liking all the romantic songs, films, quotes and end up in a conclusion - 'Life is beautiful'.
i think you just go mad when your in that ecstasy where you don't know what's happening around you and all you care about is that one person.
Some say its a blessing to experience one's love, if it is then i had that blessing too the one with a very short life span yet made a heavy impact on my life so far, which made me not like a girl very easily . when i put a step forward the other feet doesn't do the same due to the fear of getting hurt again .
I loved her truly probably love is a big word i liked her more than anybody else, thinking about her was more than the thinking about myself, it started of as being a friend but i felt some attraction a different feel when i saw her a feeling that you want to be with her, it not always about the way someone looks its just when you feel she is different which makes her stand out from the others. i. maybe i am weird i asked her on every call 'do you love me? ' its not about whether she really does, and its not about trust either but listening to her say 'yes i love you ' gave me that immense satisfaction which made me felt lighter and worry free.
Not dwelling into too much detail but things didn't work out nothing to do with me or her at that point we have gone through our rough phase, argued, fought, consoled and back together again but i guess it was something more than that , i felt it was silly but it was fate too. i could not imagine that a phone bill could ruin a relationship? i guess it was at that time.. a month later when there was no communication between us i called her back through her friend i hear 'i don't have any feelings for you any more' that did break me apart , i felt i was lost as i never in my wildest dreams would expect to hear that when things were all fine ' between us'. i gave it time i thought this was not it but i guess there are two things which you don't want to hear after all this has happened 1) she is with somebody else 2) she was faking it .
I don't want to answer what is the right answer as any of them can hurt equally. probably those were the best 6 months in my life i smiled from my heart, i learned to care , i learned how to treat a girl, i learned to make someone get out of their grief by just talking to them. all this would not have been possible if she wasn't there in my life, don't regret it ..it was an experience which i wish stayed on through my life.
Its been four years i still try to call her only to listen to her voice mail message, as they say you don't get everything in your life .
i think you just go mad when your in that ecstasy where you don't know what's happening around you and all you care about is that one person.
Some say its a blessing to experience one's love, if it is then i had that blessing too the one with a very short life span yet made a heavy impact on my life so far, which made me not like a girl very easily . when i put a step forward the other feet doesn't do the same due to the fear of getting hurt again .
I loved her truly probably love is a big word i liked her more than anybody else, thinking about her was more than the thinking about myself, it started of as being a friend but i felt some attraction a different feel when i saw her a feeling that you want to be with her, it not always about the way someone looks its just when you feel she is different which makes her stand out from the others. i. maybe i am weird i asked her on every call 'do you love me? ' its not about whether she really does, and its not about trust either but listening to her say 'yes i love you ' gave me that immense satisfaction which made me felt lighter and worry free.
Not dwelling into too much detail but things didn't work out nothing to do with me or her at that point we have gone through our rough phase, argued, fought, consoled and back together again but i guess it was something more than that , i felt it was silly but it was fate too. i could not imagine that a phone bill could ruin a relationship? i guess it was at that time.. a month later when there was no communication between us i called her back through her friend i hear 'i don't have any feelings for you any more' that did break me apart , i felt i was lost as i never in my wildest dreams would expect to hear that when things were all fine ' between us'. i gave it time i thought this was not it but i guess there are two things which you don't want to hear after all this has happened 1) she is with somebody else 2) she was faking it .
I don't want to answer what is the right answer as any of them can hurt equally. probably those were the best 6 months in my life i smiled from my heart, i learned to care , i learned how to treat a girl, i learned to make someone get out of their grief by just talking to them. all this would not have been possible if she wasn't there in my life, don't regret it ..it was an experience which i wish stayed on through my life.
Its been four years i still try to call her only to listen to her voice mail message, as they say you don't get everything in your life .
5 comments:
It's always both comforting and surprising to hear that someone is going through/has gone through an experience that you have, especially when you feel like you're the only person in the world going through it. That's how I felt reading this
Its always hard to accept the truth! atleast it was for me ..
thank you for reading my blog :)
it's what u feel after every break up....i hav known ppl who shift thro relationships and also ppl who stay forver united to their lost love......but sumhow at this pt of time ..............both of them is worthless for me!
probably ..
thank you for reading though :)
Dude i can understand how you felt, learning experiencing all of it really doesnt make any difference if u lost her.....did you atleast once think what made her to take this decision???
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